Begin Again

Happy throw back Thursday, almost made it thru the week day and the first official day of Spring.   My 53rd birthday is just around the corner causing me to take note I am completely in my '50s'. A fact that feels rather sureal as once upon a time, some years ago, it was my observation 'fifty was the begining of old'. Fifty was women with very short hair, polyester pants with uneven granny panty lines, clip on earrings, and red lipstick.  She stayed home to watch soap opras, host the occational bridge game with other fifty somethings and wait...for husband, kids, grandchildren to give her life purpose.     Time passes, things change and it is not the 1960's  anymore.  Our culture has evolved for better or for worse, people are living longer and stronger, and women no longer wait.      Life as a fifty something sure is not how I had it pictured.  Recently allowing a nice man into my world to share my day with, have fun with and grow old with was put on my 'to do' list.  Shorty thereafter he found me.  Timing is everything and we are just getting to know each other.  I wear blue jeans, g-strings and sport a few tattos.  Maybe 50 is not the begining of old. Maybe 50 is just a groovy, super cool place to begin again. kisses

Your Name In Bold Letters

I have been divorced I think about 9 years or so, I really cannot remember exactly.  I often hear others talk about their divorce date like an anniversary. This used to make me feel really dumb and wonder why I could not even get that right!  I do still remember the first day of first grade when everyone else went straight to their own desk while I stood bewildered.  How did they know? Thank God for Adriana Salinas. She showed me my desk had my name on it.  If only the rest of life could be so easy.  Choosing a successful career would be a snap. Your name in bold letters at the proper booth on career day.  Perfect soul mate at the perfect time in life, would walk up and have your name on them, maybe on a cap or across the front of a tee shirt.     Adriana, where are you now??  Life passes, time marches on and thru it all I have learned to feel more comfortable in my own skin.  I embrace my quirkiness and occasionally am delighted to find there are others somewhat like me.  Adriana it seems married the perfect soul mate at just the right time and is an Eye Doctor in another state.  So it goes. Have a super great hump day, middle of the week day, silly camel jokes day, Wednesday.  kisses

Lord, Where Are My Keys?

Good, overcast cloudy, sorta damp and dewey, open up your windows,  cool air breezy, happy Sunday day.   Some weeks it seems nothing I plan works out, that discombobulated feeling overwhelms all decision making and the phrase "I would lose my head if it were not attached" becomes a very real, reality for me.
Uncomfortable as those times are I am grateful for them.  Grateful God is good and grateful I grew up in a household where prayer, talking to Jesus, was part of daily life.  I thought my Dad was so silly when as a young teen, hearing his voice as he walked thru the house "Where are those keys, Lord? I am gonna be late".  You might not believe this but true story, over and over, a moment later,  Dad would have keys in hand thanking Jesus right out loud, for directing him to the right spot as he headed out the door. Maybe Dad was not so silly after all.  Time and again in my own life I am reminded God is real, He loves me,  He has a plan for my life and if I trust Him and remember all I have to do is ask, that discombobulated feeling goes away and I can find my keys and all sorts of other important stuff.  Amazing!! kisses