Fall Fell

Not yet twilight I need a flashlight to see out my open window on this wonderfully chilly Friday morning. I look forward to this all Summer.  

Fall officially starts with a color coded dot on my calandar and satanic predictions of a cold front dropping temputures  to the 80'sF . I translate this as 'hell freezing over' and wait patiently.  

God spoke the earth into motion and seasons care not for our dates and deadlines. October is more than half past.  I happen to be outside when it starts.  A breeze gently rattles tree leaves, it picks up a bit stirring brushy brush and disrupting butterflies and such.  I grab a handfull of hair from my face, it is not sticking to my neck.  I take a deep breath as almost suddenly the air has dried up. It is like instant energy. 

Fall finally fell. 

Have a hunky dory Fall Friday. 

I Believe Iris

Some say those we love stay with us after death. The Bible talks about heaven and hell.   A few deny there is a God or the existence of an immortal soul. I think the reason we need to believe or not believe.  Have faith in God or faith in Science is it gives us some sense of control over the inevitable end we have no control over.   What will it feel like?   Will we know it is happening?

That is kind of the scariest part really. That we have no control over how and when we die and no proof positive of the here after.    

No matter how you sort it out. Death and the big nothing or spirits passing from this life to the next. It is all in what you chose to believe.  It is all faith.

A few years ago I was told a story about a woman grieving the loss of her husband.  Her sorrow was so great she wanted to give up on life.  When one evening her living room suddenly lite up with balls of happy light dashing this way and that.  One of the balls spoke to her.  It was her beloved Teddy reassuring her all was well.  He called her by name and spoke of things only she and he had shared. The other balls were friends that accompanied him on this very rare and special visit.  Teddy's parting words, " Iris,  I do not want you to be sad anymore. I am fine.  We travel and you would not believe  all the things I get to do.  The light is our transportation."
Her pastor brushed it off as a dream.  But Iris will tell you she was not asleep.

Way too many times I held the hand of a patient as organ systems shut down.  Heart beats auscultated fewer and farther between.
Until that last breath and an immediate change takes place.
The body becomes an empty shell.                              
I believe Iris. kisses

Live and Let Live

Happy sunshine, breezy wind blowing, bees busy buzzing, colorful wildflowers waving, good Saturday afternoon.  I am content to be back in my country home. Windows open. The view, a result of recent rain storms is beautiful and gives my heart a peaceful happy feeling.

While the rare visitor asks if my lawn mower is working or do I need to borrow one? I make lame excuses to fit in with the 'norm' but in reality I have never understood the need for a 'manicured'  lawn. 

 Flora and fauna scattered in clumps and clusters grow wild as it has for only God knows how long.  Cotton tail bunnies thrive and multiply on my little acre and I saw a pregnant doe yesterday that may bear a fawn in safety if no one disturbs her place in the thicket. The very one I defend when ambitious landscappers come around. 

 This is  my Texas country side,  God's country. The creatures were here first. Have they no say? I can write this in the safety of my blog. Verbalizing brings eye rolls, snickers and comments that make me wince inside.  

Maybe I will put up a sign.

 Live and Let Live. 

Proceed with caution. kisses