Happy Birds

Good and happy sunshine Saturday morning.  I am in beautiful Port Aransas, Texas or as coastal locals call it- Port A.   I can see the beautiful surf, hear the laughing seagulls just outside our  condo window.  I love beach birds.  I believe beach birds are the happiest birds on earth.  How could they not be?  They get to live at the beach!  When I was a little kid I would try and run with the sandpipers.  They are the cutest things and I think the ADD of the shore bird world.  With their short little stick legs they run run run only to suddenly stop and poke their beak in the sand.  Then like they are late to a very important date... it is run run to a new spot then back to the previous and that goes on all day.       The seagulls are the hippie's of the shore bird world.  Seagulls are happy, go lucky, always laughing without a care.  Their nest could even be called a 'hippie hut' as it is usually just 'whatever' thrown together close to shore, comfortably messy-everyone welcome.      Now, the brown pelican is quite a magnificent sight as they fly just above the whitecaps in small groups then dive sometimes up to 30 feet into the surf for the catch of the day.  When he lands on your boat or balcony.  Folding up those huge now awkward wings, so graceful and magnificent while flying is a sight.  Should you have a fish in your hand he just might walk, no waddle right up and clack his 11 to 13 inch bill expecting your dinner to now be his.  So brown pelicans to me are the actors/comedians of the shore bird world.   Happy beautiful  first day of Autumn!  Hope you get to run with the sandpipers.  kisses

Not, friends & lovers

The moon is so bright tonight.  Not a full moon, maybe a really large man slice of pie moon but shiny bright just the same.   I am figuring out that I do not have anything figured out.  Life long friendships have apparently been pretty much one sided.  Long term relationships have been a figment of my imagination and not a real relationship at all.  Once again I find myself, oh I don't quite know how to describe the feeling...sort of off balance, like in the fun house at a carnival.  In fact so much has happened that is just so far and beyound my comprehension, like it is not as bad as it seems but worse than I will ever know.  I am totally at a loss.  Sensory overload?  That is a yes.  Am I overwhelmed to the point of unable to make one more life, relationship or what's for dinner decision?  That is a definite yes, I think, let me ask...I feel like if I can figure out why someone does what they do then I can deal with it, accept it or get away from it but I am okay.  I just had no idea there are so many people out there, well not out there, in my space, with evil, malicious, and just way hurtful motives.  What I currently have so much trouble wrapping my mind around is I have allowed myself to be treated as a tool, a means to an end, kept around for what I can provide, nothing more.  I know I have seen good, felt a connection, but only on my side apparently.   I am not angry. I do not do things to get something back but is does seem like give and take on both sides is how it should be.  It is so, oh I don't know, just  sad maybe.  Well for about a minute.  I guess there are some things I will just never understand.  I do not want to waste my precious energy and valuable time with hurt feelings on what I cannot change, or fix or even begin to understand.  I just cannot dwell on puky stuff.   Peace, kisses

Days Like This

Days like this.  One moment I am so relieved the mixed up puzzle pieces of my life seem to be starting to fit together.  The next moment some part of the reality I work so hard to dismiss just glares at eye level and bores right into my here and now.  Quickly I flick that switch hoping it works.  I want to bring the happy, feel the peace, see only the good.  I do not deal well with conflict, or emotional pain or even everyday worry.  I chose to not acknowledge those in a hurry, those that betray and things that harbor confusion.  If I ignore what I have difficulty understanding or what causes me the kind of sadness only my spirit can shed the tears then surly it will not truly exist-there will not be Days Like This!

Happy Sunshine Labor Day America

Ding and Dong, from the nearest large city morning news show that comes in clearly on my digital flat screen TV with the rabbit ears,  are on this morning.  I should not probably call them that but since they are on a network channel that streams thru a large part of Texas it seems like they would check their facts a little better or it is amazing to me, they I am sure went to college and do not seem to know what Labor Day is about.   They keep talking like it is flag day and honoring the military, they even did a piece with the Dixie Flag Company and talked about San Antonio having such a large military presence.  While that is very nice and all,  Labor Day is to pay tribute to the contribution American workers have made to make our country strong and prosperous.  United States Department of Labor has a very nice easy to read definition with a short history of how Labor Day came to be not to mention if you google just reams of information are available.   Well,  I am just a small town American girl from Flour Bluff, Texas.  I am thankful our working teachers took pride in making sure Flour Bluff kids knew what Labor Day was all about, plus my Dad usually told us kids why he was home for a Federal holiday.  According to the United States Census Bureau we are celebrating 155.2 million people that are 16 and over, June 2012,  in our nation's labor force.            So to the American worker, dock workers, ship builders, Tugboat Captains, truck drivers, bartenders-especially at the 90 West Bike Stop, construction workers, hair dressers, song writers, musicians, computer programmers, actors, teachers, telephone telemarketers (yes I know), janitors, cooks, grocery store checkers and managers, waitresses, mechanics, builders of fishing cabins and deer blinds, HVAC workers, farmers, ranchers and even you-Ding and Dong fluffy hair silly journalist majors in the newsroom of the local TV morning show, here's to you-thank you for all you do everyday all year long, you are what make America great, Thank you Thank you!  Have a nice day of rest and fun-no work today!  kisses